How to Invoke La Llorona Rosie Angelica Alonso-Spring Issue

by Rosie Angelica Alonso 

How to Invoke La Llorona

 

Sleepwalk along the sewers

between Figueroa and First Street

 

Where she was last heard,

A coyote’s howl coiled in moonlight

Light three velas beside the concrete

Reza to las tres Santitas del Barrio:

 

                               La Santa Matilda

patron saint of bruises and hickies, Come Forth

 

                               La Santa Cabrona,

patron  saint of moshpits and broken noses, Come Forth

 

                               La Santa Malvada,

patron saint of tattoos and skateboard wrecks, Come Forth

 

                                In the name of the Mothers

                                and of the Daughters

                                And of the Holy Me

                                I call upon, you, Llorona

                                luz obscura, luna llena

                                La más chingona de las chingonas

                                Come Forth

 

Smudge manzanilla oil around your eyes,

Pinch a blue spider bite above the lashes

If that doesn’t work

ride your skateboard

to the corner liquor off Simmons Avenue

 

Set offerings on an altar:

  • five hand-rolled cigars
  • a bag of Hot Cheetos
  • one cup of split ends of hair
  • a dozen claveles morados
  • y una onza de la mala vida

 

Follow her steps through the Sixth Street Bridge

Drown your old clothes

 

Apply violet lipstick,

a spiked denim vest

                Hail Llorona, la homegirl más firme,

               Who walks amongst these callejones

                Searching for sus hijas,

                Las hijas de la chingada

                como yo

Swallow her reflection rising in gas puddles

Hail Llorona, full of rebeldía

                Deliver me into temptation

                And keep me there

 

See a shadow bent above the city,

a halo of smoke

Rosie Angelica Alonso(She/Her) was born in East Los Angeles. Her poetry recounts stories of the working class people, the myths of La Virgen Roachalupe, and the overlooked Chicano punk culture in East LA. Her poetry collection, The Cockroach Manifesto, is forthcoming in 2020. Her hobbies include bike riding, cooking tofu tacos, and sneaking her cat into Walmart because, you know, sticking it to the man.

Rosie Angelica Alonso(She/Her) was born in East Los Angeles. Her poetry recounts stories of the working class people, the myths of La Virgen Roachalupe, and the overlooked Chicano punk culture in East LA. Her poetry collection, The Cockroach Manifesto, is forthcoming in 2020. Her hobbies include bike riding, cooking tofu tacos, and sneaking her cat into Walmart because, you know, sticking it to the man.

Abiogenesis by Katherine Wong Spring-Double Issue

by Katherine Wong

Abiogenesis

 

The ground had already baked to a deep, sunburnt orange. Grains of dust lingered in the air, and I stared at the remains of my family’s farm. From the hill, I could see the empty pastures where our livestock used to reside, the rotting barn and house, the brittle grass of the forgotten meadow, and the shriveled trees that used to line the dirt-paved streetways. I closed my eyes and tried to remember what it had looked like before, but the image was a fading ripple in water. 

The hill had always been my favorite spot because of the creature that inhabited the area. Its sleek white skin had a hard endurance to it, and the black irises were openings to other worlds. I pressed my eye to it, the rim cold against my seared face. A distant body, Nalara, glowed in the salmon-colored sky. Perth, a little distance away from Nalara, gleamed in a more conservative manner. 

Despite being leagues away from the nearest city, light pollution still managed to etch its way into the countryside skies. The world’s ceilings never grew darker than a murky brown. Still, I tried everyday to look for stars in the sky, hoping that our planet was healing at least a little bit. 

I laid face up in the dead grass, rigid stems digging into my back. The ground breathed hot air into my ears. I wondered what was going on in the cities, whether everyone was okay or if the melted icecaps had flooded the alleyways, the heatwaves had sucked the moisture out of the once fertile soil, the valued technology had failed to save them. I wondered if the world leaders were listening now, listening to the hunger that swept across the continents, listening to the 30l,726 extinct species and their deceased voices that compelled us to follow them.  

I whispered goodbye to the creature on the hill and draped a quilt over her shining body.  

*** 

In ancient mythology, Nalara was the goddess of fertility and family. Our ancestors painted her on shrines and conducted elaborate rituals in hopes that she would bless them with a baby. Angered, Nalara could crumble the embryo and make the mother bleed by simply letting the thought cross her mind. And whenever a successful birth occurred, people gathered to sing prayers as an act of gratitude.  

Nobody believed in Nalara or the other ancient gods anymore. Her name now donned our neighboring planet, a fiery system with skin like the organs of a volcano. Its charred cysts spat lava, cloaking the world in a dense methane atmosphere. They were the remnants of stars and meteorites, the electrical charges that surged through Nalara’s terra and magnetized its melting mantle.  

My fingers stroked the edges of the pages, which were slowly crumbling in part due to the augmenting temperatures. Pen marks from years ago were chasmic in the paper, my muddled observations and sketches filling up every crevice of space. There was something comforting about the handwritten familiarity, something that my extensive online reports couldn’t mimic.  

I flipped to one of the pages in the back. Instead of the mathematical equations and diagrams of celestial bodies, there were roughly sketched doodles and scribbled notes. I recognized my brother’s handwriting instantly. His cursive, perpetually slanted to the right, twirled across the page in looping orbits. The drawings were mostly from our family farm: stocky fruit trees and up-close examinations of leaves and flowers. The nearby lake that we used to go swimming in. Depictions of animals, domesticated and wild. 

My eyes began scanning the scattered messages that he had written.  

Miss you, Gemma. I stole your notebook. Hope that city life is treating you well, and you’re making huge discoveries about space.  

It’s not the same without you. Mom and Dad are getting older and don’t have as much energy. Mostly me taking care of the farm.

 Wish you called us more. They miss you a lot, especially Mom.  

My stomach twisted into knots as I realized where this was going. An anxious lump began to forge in my throat, and no matter how much I swallowed, the feeling of guilt remained on my shoulders. 

They’re gone. Mom went a few days ago, and Dad this morning. I’ve left you messages, but you didn’t respond. Why? They missed you so much. All they ever asked me was why you never called, why you never came back to visit.  

I couldn’t hide from the truth anymore. Tears stained the pages, the aged ink bleeding like vines spreading across a wall. The burden of shame grew with every additional breath. My chest heaved in and out in spasming intervals, the notebook convulsing with my trembling hands. 

Gemma. The world is dying. In a way, I’m glad Mom and Dad left so they didn’t have to witness this. All the animals have died from either starvation, dehydration, or heat exhaustion. The ground can’t support crops anymore. All I hope is that you’re doing something about this. You were always the sibling who knew what to do. I want to trust you, but I don’t know if I can after you left us. But you can do something. You have power in the government, you’re one of the space agency’s leading scientists. You can save us.  

There’s nothing left for me here, and I know that you won’t be coming back. I hope you’re reading this.  

My body snapped like a twig, the tectonic plates sliding out from underneath and fracturing the surrounding silence. The past was a silhouette at the door, watching the guilt flood the rotten hallways filled with remnants of another life. I did come back, and I came back to a deserted ghost town, as if the rest of the world had aged generations while I was still the same. The puzzle had already been completed for years, but I refused the truth until now.  

My brother’s messages were seared into my mind. I wiped away the tears, my face hardening with reality as I placed the notebook back on the shelf, never to be read again. 

*** 

The wind’s wheezing gasps cut my cheeks as the car sped across the empty highway. The creature, dismantled in the trunk, clanged against the sides every time we hit a bump. City buildings lined the distant horizon, and I pressed on the gas pedal to accelerate. I was an object speeding through time and light, letting the particles pass through my unbounded, massless body.  

As I pulled into the city’s borders, traffic packed the streets and a deep, unanimous murmuring from the walkersby hung in the air. Thick smog slithered through the maze of jagged buildings. Oxygen was thin, and while my trachea shuddered with its deep, slow breaths, my heart rate accelerated. 

I stopped in front of a familiar house, now lined with wilted flowers and barred windows. My body heaved itself up the creaking stairway. I knocked on the door, my knuckles rattling the decaying wood. 

A man about my age opened the door. Stress and sleep deprivation lined his face through his undereye bags and gaunt facial structure. He had a hollow stare that looked past me as if I were invisible, until something shifted within him and his face lit up with recognition. 

“Dr. Kere,” I said, holding my hand out as an act of formality, “Long time no see.” 

*** 

Dr. Kere’s house was dim and small with boxes littered everywhere, stacked on top of each other, some half opened and some fully sealed. He offered me something to eat, but nothing to drink. I sat down on the couch, scabbed with badly-sewn patches and open wounds to its stringy flesh.  

“What brings you back to the city, Gemma?” he asked.  

I paused, then answered. “I need your help. I need an engineer to help me with this.” 

His eyes shifted to the wall behind me. “You’ve come to the wrong person.” 

“The world is dying,” I said, “I’ve already mapped out the logistics of it, and where we’ll go, and what we’ll do up there. You just have to help me with designing the ship and we can propose it to the space agency. They have to say yes. It’s our last chance to save us.” 

“Go up to where? Space?” Dr. Kere asked. His face twisted into a scowl, and he stood up. “I don’t want to talk to the space agency, or meet them, or even look at them. There’s nothing we can do at this point. Just accept it.” 

Dr. Kere took a few steps forward and stopped right in front of me. His metallic breath was hot against my face, like the glaring sun’s rays that I felt everyday at the farm.  

“Do we even deserve to survive?” he continued, “Think about it. We did this to ourselves. I don’t want to partake in a desperate plan to save a few individuals, or plan out some impossible ship. It’s not going to happen.” 

I envisioned my brother crying over the corpses of our parents, the parents that I abandoned in an aimless chase for success. I saw him putting the notebook back on our shelf and walking out of our house, where he would first bury them in the brittle dirt, then hike six leagues out to the canyon. His body would decompose in the drained lake at the bottom, leaving the farm to solar radiation and suffocating gasses.  

I swallowed the resentment and looked at Dr. Kere sourly.  

“I’ll pay you,” I said, “However much you want.” 

Dr. Kere agreed. 

*** 

The hum of distant car engines intertwined with insect chitters resonated in the air. I put my eye up to the creature and adjusted its face to point up to the darkened sky. Alternating between looking at the sky and my paper, I began to sketch part of our solar system. Perth, the innermost planet and closest to the sun, was dense and lifeless. It was miniscule compared to the other planets, its surface dented with craters from invading comets and meteorites. Our planet was second to the sun, originally swept with sapphire oceans and a blissful warmth. We were the only ones known to sustain life. Now, our atmosphere was a burdening weight dragging existence down with it. 

“I think I’m done,” Dr. Kere said, stepping back to show me his design. His cursive lettering looked eerily similar to my brother’s messages in the notebook. 

I gave him a nod of satisfaction. “Look up,” I said and pointed to a spot in the sky, “That’s where they’ll be.” 

He glanced up at the sky but quickly looked away.  

*** 

 I walked through the long hallways towards the two large doors, high heels clicking against the marbled floor, my old pantsuit flowing with the glacial air conditioning. Deeply buried memories began resurfacing, one with each step and corner of the space agency’s headquarters, until I arrived. I smoothed the creases on my tucked-in shirt and straightened the blazer before pushing the two doors open. 

Familiar faces packed the large room, uniform in their expressions and staring down at my small presence. Dr. Kere, dressed sloppily, followed behind me. I walked up to the podium at the center of the room, all of their faces pointed towards me and waiting impatiently.  

“Ladies and gentlemen of the International Space Agency,” I said, my voice quivering with nervousness, “I’m Dr. Gemma Typh. I used to work here as a leading astrophysicist, and some of you might know me. I’ve come here with a plan.” 

I laid out a large poster on the table with the sketch of the sun, Perth, our planet, and Nalara. The three planets differed in composition, sequentially getting larger from Perth to Nalara. I drew out the orbits and held the poster up in the air. 

“We can send a spaceship into our planet’s orbital, one that can sustain life for hundreds, maybe thousands of years. The individuals will be put into hibernation, set to wake up at a certain time in the future. I’ve calculated that our planet will take approximately nine hundred years to heal, and once the individuals wake up from hibernation, we can send them back down to repopulate. Our species will live, along with our advanced technological knowledge.”  

I took out another poster showcasing the spacecraft orbiting our planet in greater detail. “We have the materials to build this and launch it into space. All we need to do is choose the individuals who will go on this spacecraft. We’ve calculated that it can sustain six individuals total: three males, three females. Someone in good health who’s not a known carrier of any disease.” 

Talk was already stirring, and the faces were now turned towards each other instead of at me. I stepped off the podium and gestured towards Dr. Kere, who took my place to discuss the spacecraft’s design. 

“Hello everyone,” he started, “I’m Dr. Kere, an aerospace engineer who also used to work here. Spacecrafts for hibernation should be preferably smaller in size, which is why we’ve designed this spacecraft to be compact and quick -to -construct, while still being functional. It consists of six hibernation pods that will be shielded against radiation, along with a common room to store essential items like medicine and food rations.” 

He held up another poster that mapped out the spacecraft’s structure. Dr. Kere cleared his throat and continued. 

“Now, we must also discuss the practicality of this idea,” he said, “We’ve never successfully put anyone into a long-term hibernation before. We’ve never sent anything into our planet’s orbit before. We’ve never built or launched a spacecraft of this complexity before. This idea is a huge risk and drainage on whatever supplies we have left. Is it worth it?” 

My heart sank, the faces’ mutters growing louder until it crescendoed into a profuse uproar. I ran up to the podium and pushed Dr. Kere off, waving my hands frantically in the air to try to get anyone’s attention. 

“I know it’s a risky idea! But it could work!” I yelled, but I was drowned by the other shouts fighting to be noticed. 

I turned to Dr. Kere and pushed him against the wall, my voice escalating into a vomiting wail. There was no regret on his face, and even as my hand came down on his swollen cheeks repeatedly, he looked unfazed and almost proud of himself. 

“Why did you do this?” I asked, still choking in my own tears, “Don’t you want to survive? Save the world?”

“Technology is a curse, and I know that you agree with me. Isn’t that why you left to stay at your farm in the first place?” 

I stopped, my hand hovering over his face. For a second, he looked like my brother—how they both had strong opinions and wouldn’t back down about what they believed in.  

“Let nature do its course of work,” he continued, “We deserve to die off and you know it.” 

*** 

Later, I drove back to my farm and discarded all of the plans. I reassembled the creature on the hill, balancing its bulky torso on the tripod and staring into its obsidian eyes. Perth was even fainter than it was before, but Nalara still glowed persistently. I thought of the goddess who would likely be disappointed with what we’ve become, her finger compressing the core of our planet and pulping the life out of it. We were the embryo to her, and she made the whole world bleed like the mother with leftover tissue on her inner thighs and a broken fetus. 

*** 

The once dormant volcano erupted, layering the farm in a crust of magma that wasn’t too different from Nalara’s surface. The creature was gone, an artifact to be forgotten like the farm, the city, the world. I was the only swimmer in a sea of fire, the passionate heat radiating off my cadaver, but I felt at peace for the first time.  

Life was gone and for billions of years, the universe would be void of it. I thought about how I was wrong because our planet would most likely never heal from this large of a catastrophe, how we would be erased from history and future generations would never find traces of our existence because it would all be burned to ashes, devoured by the lava, left as food to the fire. I thought about how in billions of years, abiogenesis would permeate in the future oceans, the organic compounds combining to create the first signs of life. Even though the sky was shrouded with storm clouds and strikes of lightning, I looked up to where Nalara was and envisioned her rich oceans, her fertile soil, her rolling hills—just as our planet had been like many years ago. She would evolve into civilizations like ours, industrial enterprises that spread like fever, destined to meet an identical fate. Life was a continuous cycle, with the same origins and the same endings.  

I closed my eyes and let providence wash over me.

 

 

 

by Katherine Wong

Abiogenesis

 

The ground had already baked to a deep, sunburnt orange. Grains of dust lingered in the air, and I stared at the remains of my family’s farm. From the hill, I could see the empty pastures where our livestock used to reside, the rotting barn and house, the brittle grass of the forgotten meadow, and the shriveled trees that used to line the dirt-paved streetways. I closed my eyes and tried to remember what it had looked like before, but the image was a fading ripple in water. 

The hill had always been my favorite spot because of the creature that inhabited the area. Its sleek white skin had a hard endurance to it, and the black irises were openings to other worlds. I pressed my eye to it, the rim cold against my seared face. A distant body, Nalara, glowed in the salmon-colored sky. Perth, a little distance away from Nalara, gleamed in a more conservative manner. 

Despite being leagues away from the nearest city, light pollution still managed to etch its way into the countryside skies. The world’s ceilings never grew darker than a murky brown. Still, I tried everyday to look for stars in the sky, hoping that our planet was healing at least a little bit. 

I laid face up in the dead grass, rigid stems digging into my back. The ground breathed hot air into my ears. I wondered what was going on in the cities, whether everyone was okay or if the melted icecaps had flooded the alleyways, the heatwaves had sucked the moisture out of the once fertile soil, the valued technology had failed to save them. I wondered if the world leaders were listening now, listening to the hunger that swept across the continents, listening to the 30l,726 extinct species and their deceased voices that compelled us to follow them.  

I whispered goodbye to the creature on the hill and draped a quilt over her shining body.  

*** 

In ancient mythology, Nalara was the goddess of fertility and family. Our ancestors painted her on shrines and conducted elaborate rituals in hopes that she would bless them with a baby. Angered, Nalara could crumble the embryo and make the mother bleed by simply letting the thought cross her mind. And whenever a successful birth occurred, people gathered to sing prayers as an act of gratitude.  

Nobody believed in Nalara or the other ancient gods anymore. Her name now donned our neighboring planet, a fiery system with skin like the organs of a volcano. Its charred cysts spat lava, cloaking the world in a dense methane atmosphere. They were the remnants of stars and meteorites, the electrical charges that surged through Nalara’s terra and magnetized its melting mantle.  

My fingers stroked the edges of the pages, which were slowly crumbling in part due to the augmenting temperatures. Pen marks from years ago were chasmic in the paper, my muddled observations and sketches filling up every crevice of space. There was something comforting about the handwritten familiarity, something that my extensive online reports couldn’t mimic.  

I flipped to one of the pages in the back. Instead of the mathematical equations and diagrams of celestial bodies, there were roughly sketched doodles and scribbled notes. I recognized my brother’s handwriting instantly. His cursive, perpetually slanted to the right, twirled across the page in looping orbits. The drawings were mostly from our family farm: stocky fruit trees and up-close examinations of leaves and flowers. The nearby lake that we used to go swimming in. Depictions of animals, domesticated and wild. 

My eyes began scanning the scattered messages that he had written.  

Miss you, Gemma. I stole your notebook. Hope that city life is treating you well, and you’re making huge discoveries about space.  

It’s not the same without you. Mom and Dad are getting older and don’t have as much energy. Mostly me taking care of the farm.

 Wish you called us more. They miss you a lot, especially Mom.  

My stomach twisted into knots as I realized where this was going. An anxious lump began to forge in my throat, and no matter how much I swallowed, the feeling of guilt remained on my shoulders. 

They’re gone. Mom went a few days ago, and Dad this morning. I’ve left you messages, but you didn’t respond. Why? They missed you so much. All they ever asked me was why you never called, why you never came back to visit.  

I couldn’t hide from the truth anymore. Tears stained the pages, the aged ink bleeding like vines spreading across a wall. The burden of shame grew with every additional breath. My chest heaved in and out in spasming intervals, the notebook convulsing with my trembling hands. 

Gemma. The world is dying. In a way, I’m glad Mom and Dad left so they didn’t have to witness this. All the animals have died from either starvation, dehydration, or heat exhaustion. The ground can’t support crops anymore. All I hope is that you’re doing something about this. You were always the sibling who knew what to do. I want to trust you, but I don’t know if I can after you left us. But you can do something. You have power in the government, you’re one of the space agency’s leading scientists. You can save us.  

There’s nothing left for me here, and I know that you won’t be coming back. I hope you’re reading this.  

My body snapped like a twig, the tectonic plates sliding out from underneath and fracturing the surrounding silence. The past was a silhouette at the door, watching the guilt flood the rotten hallways filled with remnants of another life. I did come back, and I came back to a deserted ghost town, as if the rest of the world had aged generations while I was still the same. The puzzle had already been completed for years, but I refused the truth until now.  

My brother’s messages were seared into my mind. I wiped away the tears, my face hardening with reality as I placed the notebook back on the shelf, never to be read again. 

*** 

The wind’s wheezing gasps cut my cheeks as the car sped across the empty highway. The creature, dismantled in the trunk, clanged against the sides every time we hit a bump. City buildings lined the distant horizon, and I pressed on the gas pedal to accelerate. I was an object speeding through time and light, letting the particles pass through my unbounded, massless body.  

As I pulled into the city’s borders, traffic packed the streets and a deep, unanimous murmuring from the walkersby hung in the air. Thick smog slithered through the maze of jagged buildings. Oxygen was thin, and while my trachea shuddered with its deep, slow breaths, my heart rate accelerated. 

I stopped in front of a familiar house, now lined with wilted flowers and barred windows. My body heaved itself up the creaking stairway. I knocked on the door, my knuckles rattling the decaying wood. 

A man about my age opened the door. Stress and sleep deprivation lined his face through his undereye bags and gaunt facial structure. He had a hollow stare that looked past me as if I were invisible, until something shifted within him and his face lit up with recognition. 

“Dr. Kere,” I said, holding my hand out as an act of formality, “Long time no see.” 

*** 

Dr. Kere’s house was dim and small with boxes littered everywhere, stacked on top of each other, some half opened and some fully sealed. He offered me something to eat, but nothing to drink. I sat down on the couch, scabbed with badly-sewn patches and open wounds to its stringy flesh.  

“What brings you back to the city, Gemma?” he asked.  

I paused, then answered. “I need your help. I need an engineer to help me with this.” 

His eyes shifted to the wall behind me. “You’ve come to the wrong person.” 

“The world is dying,” I said, “I’ve already mapped out the logistics of it, and where we’ll go, and what we’ll do up there. You just have to help me with designing the ship and we can propose it to the space agency. They have to say yes. It’s our last chance to save us.” 

“Go up to where? Space?” Dr. Kere asked. His face twisted into a scowl, and he stood up. “I don’t want to talk to the space agency, or meet them, or even look at them. There’s nothing we can do at this point. Just accept it.” 

Dr. Kere took a few steps forward and stopped right in front of me. His metallic breath was hot against my face, like the glaring sun’s rays that I felt everyday at the farm.  

“Do we even deserve to survive?” he continued, “Think about it. We did this to ourselves. I don’t want to partake in a desperate plan to save a few individuals, or plan out some impossible ship. It’s not going to happen.” 

I envisioned my brother crying over the corpses of our parents, the parents that I abandoned in an aimless chase for success. I saw him putting the notebook back on our shelf and walking out of our house, where he would first bury them in the brittle dirt, then hike six leagues out to the canyon. His body would decompose in the drained lake at the bottom, leaving the farm to solar radiation and suffocating gasses.  

I swallowed the resentment and looked at Dr. Kere sourly.  

“I’ll pay you,” I said, “However much you want.” 

Dr. Kere agreed. 

*** 

The hum of distant car engines intertwined with insect chitters resonated in the air. I put my eye up to the creature and adjusted its face to point up to the darkened sky. Alternating between looking at the sky and my paper, I began to sketch part of our solar system. Perth, the innermost planet and closest to the sun, was dense and lifeless. It was miniscule compared to the other planets, its surface dented with craters from invading comets and meteorites. Our planet was second to the sun, originally swept with sapphire oceans and a blissful warmth. We were the only ones known to sustain life. Now, our atmosphere was a burdening weight dragging existence down with it. 

“I think I’m done,” Dr. Kere said, stepping back to show me his design. His cursive lettering looked eerily similar to my brother’s messages in the notebook. 

I gave him a nod of satisfaction. “Look up,” I said and pointed to a spot in the sky, “That’s where they’ll be.” 

He glanced up at the sky but quickly looked away.  

*** 

 I walked through the long hallways towards the two large doors, high heels clicking against the marbled floor, my old pantsuit flowing with the glacial air conditioning. Deeply buried memories began resurfacing, one with each step and corner of the space agency’s headquarters, until I arrived. I smoothed the creases on my tucked-in shirt and straightened the blazer before pushing the two doors open. 

Familiar faces packed the large room, uniform in their expressions and staring down at my small presence. Dr. Kere, dressed sloppily, followed behind me. I walked up to the podium at the center of the room, all of their faces pointed towards me and waiting impatiently.  

“Ladies and gentlemen of the International Space Agency,” I said, my voice quivering with nervousness, “I’m Dr. Gemma Typh. I used to work here as a leading astrophysicist, and some of you might know me. I’ve come here with a plan.” 

I laid out a large poster on the table with the sketch of the sun, Perth, our planet, and Nalara. The three planets differed in composition, sequentially getting larger from Perth to Nalara. I drew out the orbits and held the poster up in the air. 

“We can send a spaceship into our planet’s orbital, one that can sustain life for hundreds, maybe thousands of years. The individuals will be put into hibernation, set to wake up at a certain time in the future. I’ve calculated that our planet will take approximately nine hundred years to heal, and once the individuals wake up from hibernation, we can send them back down to repopulate. Our species will live, along with our advanced technological knowledge.”  

I took out another poster showcasing the spacecraft orbiting our planet in greater detail. “We have the materials to build this and launch it into space. All we need to do is choose the individuals who will go on this spacecraft. We’ve calculated that it can sustain six individuals total: three males, three females. Someone in good health who’s not a known carrier of any disease.” 

Talk was already stirring, and the faces were now turned towards each other instead of at me. I stepped off the podium and gestured towards Dr. Kere, who took my place to discuss the spacecraft’s design. 

“Hello everyone,” he started, “I’m Dr. Kere, an aerospace engineer who also used to work here. Spacecrafts for hibernation should be preferably smaller in size, which is why we’ve designed this spacecraft to be compact and quick -to -construct, while still being functional. It consists of six hibernation pods that will be shielded against radiation, along with a common room to store essential items like medicine and food rations.” 

He held up another poster that mapped out the spacecraft’s structure. Dr. Kere cleared his throat and continued. 

“Now, we must also discuss the practicality of this idea,” he said, “We’ve never successfully put anyone into a long-term hibernation before. We’ve never sent anything into our planet’s orbit before. We’ve never built or launched a spacecraft of this complexity before. This idea is a huge risk and drainage on whatever supplies we have left. Is it worth it?” 

My heart sank, the faces’ mutters growing louder until it crescendoed into a profuse uproar. I ran up to the podium and pushed Dr. Kere off, waving my hands frantically in the air to try to get anyone’s attention. 

“I know it’s a risky idea! But it could work!” I yelled, but I was drowned by the other shouts fighting to be noticed. 

I turned to Dr. Kere and pushed him against the wall, my voice escalating into a vomiting wail. There was no regret on his face, and even as my hand came down on his swollen cheeks repeatedly, he looked unfazed and almost proud of himself. 

“Why did you do this?” I asked, still choking in my own tears, “Don’t you want to survive? Save the world?”

“Technology is a curse, and I know that you agree with me. Isn’t that why you left to stay at your farm in the first place?” 

I stopped, my hand hovering over his face. For a second, he looked like my brother—how they both had strong opinions and wouldn’t back down about what they believed in.  

“Let nature do its course of work,” he continued, “We deserve to die off and you know it.” 

*** 

Later, I drove back to my farm and discarded all of the plans. I reassembled the creature on the hill, balancing its bulky torso on the tripod and staring into its obsidian eyes. Perth was even fainter than it was before, but Nalara still glowed persistently. I thought of the goddess who would likely be disappointed with what we’ve become, her finger compressing the core of our planet and pulping the life out of it. We were the embryo to her, and she made the whole world bleed like the mother with leftover tissue on her inner thighs and a broken fetus. 

*** 

The once dormant volcano erupted, layering the farm in a crust of magma that wasn’t too different from Nalara’s surface. The creature was gone, an artifact to be forgotten like the farm, the city, the world. I was the only swimmer in a sea of fire, the passionate heat radiating off my cadaver, but I felt at peace for the first time.  

Life was gone and for billions of years, the universe would be void of it. I thought about how I was wrong because our planet would most likely never heal from this large of a catastrophe, how we would be erased from history and future generations would never find traces of our existence because it would all be burned to ashes, devoured by the lava, left as food to the fire. I thought about how in billions of years, abiogenesis would permeate in the future oceans, the organic compounds combining to create the first signs of life. Even though the sky was shrouded with storm clouds and strikes of lightning, I looked up to where Nalara was and envisioned her rich oceans, her fertile soil, her rolling hills—just as our planet had been like many years ago. She would evolve into civilizations like ours, industrial enterprises that spread like fever, destined to meet an identical fate. Life was a continuous cycle, with the same origins and the same endings.  

I closed my eyes and let providence wash over me.

 

 

 

Katherine Wong(She/Her) is a junior at Orange County School of the Arts (OCSA) in the Creative Writing Conservatory. She enjoys writing speculative fiction and poetry, and her work has been recognized in several competitions such as the Scholastic Writing Awards. Katherine serves as Assistant Editor-in-Chief of Irvine Media Club, where she proofreads journalism articles to help students publish them in the Korea Times. She is also a writer for the LA Times High School Insider and frequently writes science fiction reviews and articles on public health issues. Outside of writing, Katherine plays the piano and runs a community service project called STEM THE ART, which teaches youth a combined curriculum in the sciences and the arts.

Katherine Wong(She/Her) is a junior at Orange County School of the Arts (OCSA) in the Creative Writing Conservatory. She enjoys writing speculative fiction and poetry, and her work has been recognized in several competitions such as the Scholastic Writing Awards. Katherine serves as Assistant Editor-in-Chief of Irvine Media Club, where she proofreads journalism articles to help students publish them in the Korea Times. She is also a writer for the LA Times High School Insider and frequently writes science fiction reviews and articles on public health issues. Outside of writing, Katherine plays the piano and runs a community service project called STEM THE ART, which teaches youth a combined curriculum in the sciences and the arts.

I Am Me by Amy Le Doan Spring-Double Issue

by Amy Le Doan

I AM ME

 

Do You eat rice everyday?

                                    You watch anime? Do you understand it?

                                                      You listen to K-pop? Do you understand that?

                                                                              Are you Asian or Chinese?

                                                       Do you speak Asian?

                                 Does your mom talk bad about her nail clients in Viet?

Do your parents want you to be a doctor or lawyer?

                          Are your parents strict?

                                                             Your English is very good. Where are you from?

                                                                                          No, like, where were you born?

                                       Ew, what’s that smell? You eat that?

                                               Are all Asians cheap?

                                                                        Are all Asians smart?

                                                                                                  Do all Asians drive badly?

                                                                              Is it hard to see?

                                           Can you open your eyes?

                                                                 You’re so white-washed.

                                                                                        You’re so Asian.

                                                                  Questions and ideas invade my mind, 

                                                      ‘Who am I?’

                                        ‘What am I?’

                                               ‘Am I Asian?’

                                                         ‘Am I American?’

                                                                    ‘Am I both?’

                                                                I am me.

Amy Le Doan is an Asian-American, Vietnamese-American to be more specific. Doan was born and raised in America by my Vietnamese parents. Growing up around so many students of different cultures meant that Doan got asked many questions. Maybe they were never meant to be harmful, or maybe they were. These questions often led to them questioning themselves and who they were. Doan now realizes that they are in control of who they are and the best they could do is to educate others about stereotypes and how they can be, no matter the intent, harmful on one’s self-esteem.

Amy Le Doan is an Asian-American, Vietnamese-American to be more specific. Doan was born and raised in America by my Vietnamese parents. Growing up around so many students of different cultures meant that Doan got asked many questions. Maybe they were never meant to be harmful, or maybe they were. These questions often led to them questioning themselves and who they were. Doan now realizes that they are in control of who they are and the best they could do is to educate others about stereotypes and how they can be, no matter the intent, harmful on one’s self-esteem.

A Bed of Tears I Weep For Sisters by Lynk Era Spring-Double Issue

by Lynk Era

A Bed of Tears I Weep For Sisters

 

I weep for sisters who are not cis-ters
Who wear makeup with heads held high
Afraid to look strangers in the eye
With that fear always in the back of their mind

I weep for the distant sister who I never really knew
But I relate to
And when we match gazes I can understand why
You chose to stand aside
When you knew there was nothing you could do

I weep for big sisters who take on too much
Who try to be everything to everyone. Who always offer to pay for lunch.
The sisters who try to take on too much responsibility.
To this sister, I say I’m not your burden to bear

I weep for my sisters of a different color, different mother but
Mind and heart aligned.
I cry for every door that will be shut in your face
Because your skin is darker than mine

I weep for the sister whose heart my brother broke, forgive him,
He is slogging off the pain of brothers told to be men.
He is figuring out how to glue himself back together again

I weep for sisters who became mothers,
Victims of brothers who were trained to become men. I
Weep for the life that was stolen from you and lives you stole in turn

I weep for the smallest sisters who will
Never get what they deserve.
Who get the scraps of scraps
And will always have to fight for a turn

I weep for sisters who only accept the love they think they deserve,
I cry as the men who were brothers treat you like dirt.
I cry for the sister you one day might birth

I weep for the sisters to whom I ever did a wrong turn.
The world is not kind to sisters and turns us ignorant of your worth.
I weep for every sister we will not know because this ignorance plagues the earth.

Lynk Era was a Fullerton college student who is now pursuing their Bachelor’s Degree in English at Arizona State University. They spend their days slinging coffee as a barista but have bigger dreams of being a librarian. Their work stems from a love of rare words, mythology, and the mystery of human existence. Still a resident of sunny Southern California, they also spend most days wishing for it to rain. Lynk Era firmly believes the best ideas come from water. They are currently working on their debut poetry collection that has yet to be titled

Lynk Era was a Fullerton college student who is now pursuing their Bachelor’s Degree in English at Arizona State University. They spend their days slinging coffee as a barista but have bigger dreams of being a librarian. Their work stems from a love of rare words, mythology, and the mystery of human existence. Still a resident of sunny Southern California, they also spend most days wishing for it to rain. Lynk Era firmly believes the best ideas come from water. They are currently working on their debut poetry collection that has yet to be titled.

Lynk Era was a Fullerton college student who is now pursuing their Bachelor’s Degree in English at Arizona State University. They spend their days slinging coffee as a barista but have bigger dreams of being a librarian. Their work stems from a love of rare words, mythology, and the mystery of human existence. Still a resident of sunny Southern California, they also spend most days wishing for it to rain. Lynk Era firmly believes the best ideas come from water. They are currently working on their debut poetry collection that has yet to be titled

Lynk Era was a Fullerton college student who is now pursuing their Bachelor’s Degree in English at Arizona State University. They spend their days slinging coffee as a barista but have bigger dreams of being a librarian. Their work stems from a love of rare words, mythology, and the mystery of human existence. Still a resident of sunny Southern California, they also spend most days wishing for it to rain. Lynk Era firmly believes the best ideas come from water. They are currently working on their debut poetry collection that has yet to be titled.

Sophia Rivera Spring-Double Issue

by Sophie Rivera 

Girasoles 

 

Light green fades into dark
as beads hang from mismatched hooks

they are the stems of the
yellow turned orange
upside-down sunflowers
I wear fiercely on my ears
when I’m trying to make sense
of the fogginess in my own brain

Through my repeated
stuttering words
my girasoles have a way
about them
guiding me
out of the forgotten places 

Well they give color to my dark days
they give me warmth too
and I don’t feel so lost
they are my ofrenda
to the patron saint
of best friends
 

Reminding me
of my amiga
por vida
Milagros
the miracle of the
girasol memories
of the day we decided to be best friends
and I discovered she lived across the street
on summit

 

How we would meet next to the cucaracha
for a bag of hot Cheetos with lemòn
or gather our change
to share a raspado
on days so hot
the heat
lingered into the evening

 

We’d stay up
gossiping about our sisters and their love
liveswondering when the boy down the street
would ride by on his bike

 

When he didn’t pass
there was always the elotero
the only constant
we knew to count on
to swap our adventure stories for an ear
of corn

 

Nothing could catch us
from jumping fences to running from Lalo’s dogs
from her mom
or laying in the middle of the dimly lit street at night
to look up at the stars
listen to oldies
dance to cumbias

 

And she listened
to the story of my world falling apart
so when she had to moveI asked her what her favorite flower was
and before she left
she proclaimed “Girasoles!”
because it is like carrying the sun
and we
we are the sun

 

 

A Body of Work

 

Soon I will come home
to my mother’s heartbeat-
It is the sound of waves
rolling into one another
softly meeting for an
instant embrace
as the current
roars just below the surface
like the ones that will greet you
on a late Sunday afternoon at
Bolsa Chica beach. 

 
And it is a song that has been grown,
from her mother’s womb
and her mother’s, mother’s womb.
She is our first mother
the ocean.
Because we came from the water. 

 

They all exist inside of me
inside this heart the size of my fist.
I want to see my heart expand
so I stretch my hand
wide, spread my fingers,
examine the ways
in which I resemble
my mother’s strength. 

 

I don’t know if I will ever work as hard
as that woman
but I pray to creator everyday
that the skin on my hands and knuckles
split and tear the way my mother’s do. 

 
She holds my indulgent hands, soft,
between hers, rough and lived,
she laughs at me- 

 

You’ve never worked a day in your life. 
 

I want to tell her
that picking up the pen
taking it to paper
to remember all the stories
that only I can tell
is a labor
so scary
it is what makes me
most alive.
Instead I laugh with her
because I know
what I know.

Sophia Rivera(she/her) is a Chicana storyteller, scholar, and writer from Northwest Pasadena, Califas. Her writing explores ancestral and embodied memory, inter-generational trauma, healing, and decolonial love. She has been published in the Coiled Serpent: Poets Arising from the Cultural Quakes in Los Angeles Anthology by Tia Chucha Press, Hometown Pasadena Magazine, the International In the Words of Women Anthology and her co-written essay, Passing the Sage was featured in the Chicana/Latina Studies Journal.

Sophia Rivera(she/her) is a Chicana storyteller, scholar, and writer from Northwest Pasadena, Califas. Her writing explores ancestral and embodied memory, inter-generational trauma, healing, and decolonial love. She has been published in the Coiled Serpent: Poets Arising from the Cultural Quakes in Los Angeles Anthology by Tia Chucha Press, Hometown Pasadena Magazine, the International In the Words of Women Anthology and her co-written essay, Passing the Sage was featured in the Chicana/Latina Studies Journal.